New Music! "Hater"

Heard this new song on 106 and Park by some new girl named Miranda Brooke if I spelled her name right. I love the song! Its called Hater. It has a cool new video that will hopefully make the countdown. Shes a pretty model-type singstress with hip pipes and beautiful hair if I must say so. Looking forward to hearing a bit more from her.She is signed by Akon’s brother, Def Jam A&R Bu Thiam, Miranda counts TLC, Xscape, Aaliyah, and Missy Elliott among her musical influences. To me she looks a little like Alicia keys at some angles but a few say Rihanna. Personally I don't see it but check her out and support the music. To listen to her new debut single "hater" check out the links...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CNpqdsNX_kQ

for the actual song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cPkzpznVTtw&feature=related

for a preview of the music video

random thoughts

Hey everyone in internet world. Im just here listening to some musiq soulchild on the laptop at school. Kinda bored with nothing to do. I got a ride today so I'm actually a good hour early before my classes start. I realized I have been neglecting you guys a little. Im on twitter more than anything thats for sure. If you're interested inmy quirky, ranting quotes or just wanna laugh at my misery FOLLOW ME: @honeydiipz yup thats me. I also have a myspace but trust me I havent been on it in ages so it makes no sense I broadcast that. I couldnt sleep last night because I was so upset. Im starting to doubt that the direction that Im going right now is the one for me. I kind of wake up feeling like im almost living somone else's life. Its strange I would've never looked back on my life 5yrs ago and see myself where I am right now. But thats the thing with life you never know where it leads you. You can just chose to follow the path marked out for you or trailblaze. Im chosing to trailblaze. I was talking to one of my friends today and they told me about their hardships trying to persue their careeer and their work ethic motivated me. Its not about being an angry black woman its about being motivated and knowing what u want. I was up watching Pretty Little Liars last night. Its not really my kinda show just because every person is over the top adorably cute and good looking....well 90%. I seen one rather interesting looking character lol. but anyway I'll post one of the quotes from the show that stuck with me and will be my thought for the rest of the week





"Don't apologize for who you are or what you want...I know i'm not" -Pretty Little Liars







And so with that I'll leave it at that. the tabs as well for other updated stuff. Talk to y'all soon and hopefully not too long from now.


much luv xox



-Bonita

Fall Fashion 2 Spoil our Youth

Fall is here and so is fall fashion! What I love the most is all the neat ways to accessorize from leg warmers, stockings, socks, scarves, ankle boots, hoodies, sweater dresses, knitted hats, finger gloves, purses and much more. So.. I was doing a little online shopping and saw some real adorable stuff. Check it out!

 look at these Louis. I would get one in every colour. Tres cute!

For the modest little indian boy. Yay for mocasins.

totally adorable. How much are they you ask? I have no clue. If they are this cute who really cares?!

Leopard is hot hot hot this season. Why can't the little miss be just as trendy as the big miss? Note the velcro fasteners. Very toddler friendly. I was gushing over these. I want them all!!!!

Quik post

Im Out with the girls we are all just getting dressed. well I'm dressed I'm just waiting for them to get their lives together so the drinking can begin. I originally was supposed to go to the movies or dinner tonight. Somehow I knew that plan would've fell through. Oh well when one door closes another one opens. Im also here on facebook as well.**SIGHS** Facebook is definately not what it used to be. Now I just go on to post my pics of events places and things I have no space for in my phone. Also to keep tabs on my friends who are now distant. Either they are away at school or we are now on a see-you-when-i-see-you type a basis. I considered deleting it but since I created it about  4,5 years ago it has become a documentation of my life and events.

Obsessions and Reality

hey salutations :)

Today has been just one of those days where I just feel like I need to just get away. Escape the drag day this one has become. I always think of how great a day will go for me and someone or something has to screw it up. ughh! whatever! To amuse myself I began watching some television. I seen previews for the next LA INK episode. I used to watch that show till that dirty little homewrecker stole Sandra Bullock's husband. Emphasis on stole and HUSBAND. I can't bring myself to watch it anymore. Men. silly fools some can be. Don't realize the treasure they have in their reach but rather go the distance to be with a tatted up scrawny whore :) I'm being polite. Anyways....

so I I'm watchiing this show called "My Collection Obsession" and these people really have lost their marbles. I seen from Vacuum collecting little boy to a grown-ass woman bleach blond hair who collects dolls. She spent a thousand dollars on what? A doll! I mean if I was rich and successful well then i guess I could afford to collect whatever I wanted. What shocked me most was that this woman around the age of around 50 took the life size doll around the age of 5yrs old out to the park. Not only did she strap the doll in a booster seat in the car but also pushed it along in a stoller in broad daylight! IN PUBLIC! LOL then if that doesnt surprise me she decided the doll needed her 1st pair of shoes and then proceedeed to spend $70 on a pair of high heel sandals. wow. She said it's to fill a void because she has a very nuturing nature. ok crazy doll lady lol but as weird as it seems to me I like to take away something positive from everything. It's inspiring how someone can devote themselves to just one specific thing that has no life in it. An object can hold such value to them and its crazy how we can develop such emotional attatchment to "stuff." The show continued and I seen a gay couple who had a massive Dolly Parton collection. I really like her despite mixed responses to her theatrical appearance and almost whimsical personality. I grew up listening to her music. I bet you didn't know that about me did ya?? Better believe it. I grew up listening to all the old classics. All i can remember was waking up on a sunday morning and running downstairs seeing my mom standing at the old wooden record player. The screen door was open and cool summery breeze found its way the room light only by sunlight. Off into the kitchen she would go and the room would fill with a soft crackle and upbeat music would start. A tiny little voice would fill the room. I remember looking at the record cover reading the words Dolly scribbled across it in cursive. I could remember thinkin wow this little skinny white woman can really sing and she had such a distinct sound. My favourite song I loved to listen to kinda went like this "how much is that doggy in the window, the one with the waggly tail, how much is that doggy in the window, i do hope that dog is for sale..." I dont remember much else lol. Enough of going down memory lane. What I was trying to say is I can somehow relate to these obsessiive people who attatch themselves to these objects and images. I too feel I have an obsession with memories and I find that I'm extremely sentimental. I like to cherish little remnants of the past. Wether its in photograph form, a dairy from when I was 10yrs old, a drawing from 5yrs old or even a subway transfer from my 1st ride on the subway. Ladies and Gents take the time to look around and cherish the moment because as much as would wish, no moment can last forever....

love y'all!

-Bonita

Wedding Fever & Cold Feet

Wedding Fever and Cold Feet

My friend is getting married soon. I can't help but think of marriage myself and everything it comes with. Helping someone plan their event of a lifetime is fun...stressful and gets me a little bit sentimental. I think a lot about how I would like my wedding day to be. PERFECT. Not one satin bowtie or ascot outta place, not one curl frizzy and not one pinky left unmanicured. I know I would be far from a bridezilla but I know what I like, how I like it and what I want. I want my wedding day to be like a beautiful dream. At the same time I want it to be like great sex. Not too dragged out and exhausting, fun and filled with little surprises, romantic with candlelight good music, great company, sweet and pleasurable. lol I cant wait till everything comes together nicely and seeing one of my besties walk down the aisle. Now the amusing parts like her bachlorette should be easy. Im thinking sex toys and margaritas. Maybe even a pole dancing class for everyone! Now that would be fun and different. The purpose is not to get her wasted to the point of no return but rather to make lasting memories that stick. Give her unmarried days the boot, an adios! A farewell! I have no idea what to plan in good time it will fall together I suppose. I'm so happy for the couple. Wish them all the happiness in the world.

On another note. Cold feet. I dont have a fear of comittment of any kind...however though, school is drawing neigh and I'm already consumed with the jitters. They come and go but they are growing more and more frequent as the days get closer. I have no idea what to expect. I try to familiarize myself with the study and the school but still. I feel like a girl starting highschool. I need paper, pencils, notebooks, erasers! yes a LOT of erasers...I feel as though I will be making quite a few mistakes. In addition to school supplies I need a lot of other things too. Like stupid OSAP to go through gosh darnit! no OSAP NO SCHOOL. SOOO.....if any of u OSAP ppl are reading this by any chance whatsoever...please approve my application thanks! I got my OSAP estimate yesterday and I dont know if it will be enough to cover all my expenses(car, car, books, tuition,car!!!) lol Yes I have been looking. Shameful of me I know right...but hey in my defense I'm not the only one who has thought of it or has even done it. I know that if I do I will not be the lastr either. Besides someone like me needs suitable transportation buslife is cramping my style. The sweet smell of armpit mixed with curry and pum-pum grease doesnt come off as my favourite fragrance. Well I must do what I must to get where I gotta go in life litterally and figuratively speaking. Drinking camomile tea daily to calm the nerves, trying to get plenty of rest and daydreaming shall keep me occupied until the day comes. When it does I'll tell all those doubtful Thomas' to kiss my ass and the haters "look at me now". Till next time my lovlies!!!!!

-Bonitaaaaaaaaa <3

Born 2 Dance!

BORN 2 DANCE

so what are we on...the 3rd episode or so now? I been keeping up with it and I thought it was gonna be a remake of the played out "who wants to be the next pussycat dolls/ girlicious" thype show. However it's nothing of the sort. Its still dancing in skimpy outfits but it seems that Lauriean (the main choreographer/ video diva actor extrordinaire) is not a Robin Anton copy. I love her spirit and love for dance. She is gives the girls hard criticism mixed with positive reinforcement. She doesn't just say: you suck! She uses more of a coaching method than a Simon Powell method. Overall so far this show is great entertainment to watch and is yet another knot on the string of reality performance type shows to grace tv land. My top fav girls is the chubby cute one who was previewed with the broken necklace (cant seem to remember her name at the moment) and a couple others. My least favourite girl is the ghetto looking one with the bright red little mermaid mop top thing on her head. what's up with that? I'm sure you were thinking it too. lol. Through several other male opinions she looks manly. I quote: "whoooah is that a man or woman?" me: " lol thats right there is a woman....ye" Male: " ohhh from the side she looks like a man. But thats bad. All i know is a woman is supposed to look like a woman not jus from one side but AAALLL angles" LOL i had a good laugh at that comment. Well im not a hater...we'll just wait and see how far she goes.

 Love the boots by the way HOT HOT HOT FIRE FIRE FIRE!

Nicki Minaj a trois?

So For those of you who are outta tha loop...Nicki is in Toronto!!! To be truthful I'm not her biggest fan but I can tell you that I do listen to some of her music. Often not by choice but its everywhere! She has been blowing up the sound waves with her "SUPER BASS" and all her latest tunes. Her song "MOMENT FOR LIFE" has been on repeat on peoples ipods and blackberries everywhere. Just the other day I seen the video play 3times in one sitting on much music. What can I say she has star quality nipples exposed or not. lol All she needs is a sex tape a couple of DUI's and she's at the top with the rest of Hollywood's most knowns. Maybe I'm behind again and she already has one...hmnn I'll google that later lol you know y'all like to google things too. Anyways I'll be attending LUXY's nightclub in Vaughn Ontario where shes hosting at 10:30pm. Gotta be there! Haven't been out in awhile but I have been looking forward to this. I bought my outfit, did my hair, bought my shoes, accessories the full nine. I gotta keep up with all the Nicki wannabees that I'm sure will be there. I'm sorry I will not be wearing pink extensions or see-thru dress but its more or a Beyonce number. Those who know me should already know what it is. Despite all the happiness and excitement going around tonight's affair I'm disappointed. One thing I hate is people who I depend on and they fall short. I realized today that although I think of people a certain way the feelings not always mutual. Tonight for me will not just be a fun outing or something to do tonight. Tonight will be my big celebration for getting accepted to college which may seem small to some but HUGE to me. Tonight will kick off my new mind state, my new sparkly shiny future. Tonight will be a huge relief from all the drama and stress I been dealing with. So even though all my important friends ans support systems aren't gonna be there to party it up with me I'll still try to have a great time. Besides I've already spent over $100, got my MAC makeup done and liquor. Hey and maybe I wouldn't mind seeing a celebrity. I'm gonna post pics and a walk thru of my outfit for you guys and lemme know what y'all think. I put down 6  for the guest list tonight and sadly its down to 3. Me my home-girl and my ego. Like Beyonce says I got a big ego, BIG enough to take up 4 other spaces :) well gotta get all dolled up! XOXO

-Bonita

GREAT NEWS!!!

Its remarkable how with just one word, one phrase, one phonecall everything changes. I got the best phonecall I've ever recieved yesterday. It was the happiest...well one of the most happiest moments of my life. One of my top colleges that I had applied for called me back :) I was happier than happy. The lady spoke to me in the accustomary tone: "i'm calling to notify you that your application has been accepted and there is now space available in your program...you will receive a letter next week in the mail...you will start classes in 3weeks time." I nearly had a heart attack. First at the thought that I'd actually be starting school so soon and secondly that they actually called me back with such good news. Im telling you. It was all in God's plan for me. Im now trying to get myself ahead...further in life. I can now achieve the goals that I had once set for myself. The future is just glowing bright. Only problem now is getting financial aid to come through in time to start classes. What the hell am I gonna do??! Im trying to refrain from panicking beacause I can do this. I was stressing before and everything worked itself out in due time. Im so thankful. This is a testament to what I been going through. The ups and downs and failures. Nows time for nothing less than success. All who stood against me are not going to stop me they arent going to ever! They will not stop me they are just speed bumbs in my way trying to slow me down. So from now Im armouring up for the fight ahead. I know its going to be. I HATE changes. I know hate may be a strong word but its truely how I feel. I love things to be consistent and stay comfortable and happy. Anything that could mean complications, drama, or even a detour from my routine im not having it! lol Just thought I'd share my happy news with the world. Im soooooo excited! I'll keep y'all updated. College life here I come!

How To Know Deception

Woke up with thoughts heavy on my mind and felt that need to write.
SO... everyone I have something interesting to share with you. Its about Deception. To further express this thought I decided to look up the military term for the word.

DECEPTION: Those measures designed to mislead the enemy by manipulation, distortion, or falsification of evidence to induce the enemy to react in a manner prejudicial to the enemy's interests.

This description of the word is more stronger to me than the typical definition of the word. When you deceive or try to deceive someone you are basically viewing them as the enemy. They are just subjects, casualties. They may be  the subject or just another puzzle piece in the deception. Deceiving someone is done by lies and trying to manipulate the subject to believing that whatever you may be saying is true. Because of this feisty word I find myself often in a position of lack of trust of many individuals.

Its often said to trust no one but yourself. Its true. Don't trust ANYONE. Anyone and everyone has great potential to be your enemy. Humans are selfish creatures although many may try to argue or debate my theory, they still do things for their own benefit or satisfaction. They will deceive, manipulate and concoct a world that you may believe in. Furthermore, anything where you must hide the truth is wrong. How to know your deceived is hard to decipher because it depends on the person. some people are extremely gullible others are just really good at telling lies. Here is a list of the things to watch for to know if you might possibly be being deceived:

1) sketchy references about their past, experiences or specific events
2) They lie about basic information eg: age, sex, name, place of birth etc..
 if someone lies about something as simple as this I can guarantee there are a bucket load of lies that follow. If you may be seeing someone who lies or has lied to you about their name? or even sex? run for the hills and keep running! lol he may be a she and Johnny may be a Jennifer. I'm just saying anything now a days is possible.
3) Lie about there whereabouts and you verify that its a lie
4) You never see their family
someone is forever out of town or your schedules never seem to match up
5)They leave the room for most conversations even if you aren't at an intimate dinner
6)You ask them questions and the story always changes
7) They pride themselves for being great cons and well straight up great deceivers

there are a lot of other indicator but you just always have to be 5 steps ahead of these people. SEE THE TRUE BUZZ TAB AT TOP OF PAGE TO READ A TRUE STORY THAT INSPIRED THIS POST...DEFINITELY I MUST READ!

 

Feel free to post ur stories in the comment section I'd be interested to e

hear your stories :) or you could privately email me at sospecialkay@gmail.com

Never be a victim...know the signs. Don't TRUST ANYONE and maybe not everyone is untrustworthy but its always hard to depict the friends from the phonies especially when you mix the two...

 

-Bonita

My Horoscope for Aug 5th 2011

Today was just a strange day. Kinda hard to explain. I'm feeling kinda confident and at peace with myself today, not sure where this came from. OMG no word of a lie ladies and gents i just decided to go look up my horoscope online and this is what it says:

Your energy level and your self-confidence are high now. You are full of enterprise and may chaff at the bit if you can not do enough, if your present position doesn't give you enough scope, or if your superiors do not allow you to take initiative and advance as you want to.         

Wellness:		85%
Intellect:		51%
Love:		27%
Emotions:		45%
Intuition:		64%
Creativity:		24%
Work:		28%
Money:		60%

So based on this nifty little chart they have on this site it says my intuition is quite high hmn...I have been feeling rather intuitive lately. It has to have some measure of truth to it because work is only 28% lol and love is really low as well. Truthfully I lack employment right now and my love life? Well...I guess the numbers speak for themselves right?Money isnt where I'd like it to be but its higher than 50% and it is a steady number. My wellness is super high which is great. Now I'm thinkng to myself where do they get theses percentages from? Based on what conclusions? What study? hmn. interesting. I'm going to humour myself and post another from another site to see if there are any similarities.
http://www.dailyhoroscopes.net/taurus.html

Another site says this:   It's not often when those of your sign aren't feeling confident. That alone might mean you'd be tough to get along with, but you're also far too genuine and approachable to hang that or any other natural gift over anyone's head. When someone does need to take charge, you won't be shy about stepping up. If it's to defend someone or something who can't do it for themselves, you can be positively formidable. Good luck to anyone who gives you a reason to take charge now

 http://www.self.ca/horoscopes/daily/taurus



So Basically to summarize the whole thing...the next few days should be filled with confidence. Overall through reading these predictions I agree with them. I am very much a take charge type of person. I truely hate to see things fall apart. I'll Jump in ready to assist in any way I can in any situation. If you are into this type of thing you could check out the sites I go to. Keep in mind that majority of the time these things are fictional so don't go psycho thinking that by next week ur gonna die or lose your job just because some cat-lady sitting on the toilet seat came up with ur faulty predictions. Live your life to the fullest and enjoy it. Don't let silly predictions or furtune cookie crap determine your fate. Your destiny is in your own hands. If your horoscope says today you will have a bad day it's ultimately up to you how you perceive yiur day and the outcome. So all my fellow Taureans go ahead grab life by the horns!

-Bonita


 

Beehive/ Fashion

Beehive aka the fashion central:
NAIL ART FRENZY

The latest in whatever is trending. Nails Nails Naillllls!!!!!!!!! They are upgrading like VCR to blueray player, from cassette to Mp3, from  from 2d to 3d. Yes I'm still talking about nail art. We are now in a time where you can even get your nails done in 3d. The latest trends range from pointed nails, nail jewelery, bright contrasting colours, to edgy prints and patterns. Not all of these styles I would consider putting on myself but they are cool to look at.

Hello Kitty Nails? And is that an actual gumball machine on the nails? Totally adorable though.

The deamon nails...could take an eye out with those. Catfight anyone??

I call these pointy deamon nails. Vey Gaga. Loving the abstravt designs in combination with those bright summery colours. You would definately be getting quite a few double looks with these on.

Pretty with the usual square shaped acrylics. I'd definately consider getting these. Imagine these with a really nice gaudy ring? Absolutely gorge!

Craaaaazy design. Im thinkin this took hours to do. I see a little 3D art on the tips as well.

Nails can be political too. "Yes We Can!" Obama baby!

A little bit much dont you think?

Comment, let me know what you guys think.

The Ideal Man

To all the single ladies or just women in a transitional phase between men. I know one cant help but wonder does this creature even exist? To me he seems more fictional than real. It's not about finding the perfect, flawless man but rather the man that has the fewest flaws and imperfections that either flatter him or you can manage to overlook.

Here are a few words that express this theme.

The Perfect Man

by Kris

The perfect man loves you for you and not just one tiny part. The perfect man would sacrifice everything for you. The perfect man isn't afraid to tell you the truth. The perfect man is kind, sweet, funny, and loving. The perfect man can make you crumble with one glance. The perfect man can make you feel unlike you've ever felt before. The perfect man knows he's perfect, but won't ever admit it. The perfect man has a smile that lights up a room. The perfect man will admit when he's wrong. The perfect man won't admit when he's right. The perfect man would never say anything that makes you feel like less of a person. The perfect man has his beliefs, but would never force them on you. The perfect man won't force you to tell him everything, but he's always there if you want to. The perfect man will sit with you when you don't feel like dancing. The perfect man will know when to take your hand. The perfect man will know when he loves you but won't tell you until he's sure he means it. The perfect man will make you want to be a better person. The perfect man does not exist. In all the above there is a little humour and a little truth. Men are so human and so flawed. At times it appears that they only exist in fairytales and romantic comedies.

Romance: Mind Sex

MIND SEX

when you came on my blog I know you heard music. Maybe it was a song that I love called Mind Sex. It's the ultimate playout of the ideal man. A man who thinks with head and not with just lust. See now if everyone had a lil mindsex before they made love you would know someone a lot better before you got into bed. I'd tell any man that would ever come my way...sure sex is great, what else do you have to offer? If there is silence after that question then they're silence answered it for them. Please entice my mind. Caress me with great conversation, stroke my immagination and penetrate the depths of my mind with your words. Seduce me.  Lets talk, walk and capture each other's hearts through simply enjoying each other's company instead of telling me play by play how you would bend me over and jack-hammer me in an explicit way. Maybe Im the last of a dying breed or something is wrong with me but im a hopless romantic and I believe chivalry isn't dead. Not yet that is.
Here...take in the lyrics of this song and feel free to tell me what you think.

MIND SEX- DEAD PREZ
It's time for some mind sex, we ain't got to take our clothes off yet
We can burn the incense, and just chat
Relax, I got the good vibrations
Before we make love let's have a good conversation

[verse 1]
Pardon me love but you seem like my type
What you doin tonight? you should stop by the site
We could, roll some weed play some records and talk
I got a fly spot downtown brooklyn, new york
Now I know you think I wanna fuck, no doubt
But tonight we'll try a different route, how bout we start
With a salad, a fresh bed of lettuce with croutons
Later we can play a game of chess on the futon
See I ain't got to get in your blouse
It's your eye contact, that be getting me aroused
When you show me your mind, it make me wanna show you mines
Reflecting my light, when it shines, just takin our time
Before the night's through, we could get physical too
I ain't tryin to say I don't wanna fuck, cause I do
But for me boo, makin love is just as much mental
I like to know what I'm gettin into

[chorus]
We could have mind sex, we ain't got to take our clothes off yet
We can burn the incense, and just chat
Relax, I got the good vibrations
Before we make love let's have a good conversation

It's time for some mind sex, we ain't got to take our clothes off yet
We can burn the incense, and just chat
Relax, I got the good vibrations
Before we make love let's have a good conversation
Time for some mind sex...

(singing): before we make love

Yeah, what you know about mind sex?

(singing): before we make love
[verse 2]
African princess, tell me yo' interests
Wait, let me guess boo, you probably like poetry
Here's a little something I jotted down in case I spotted you around
So let me take this opportunity
Would you share a moment with me, over herbal tea?
Take a walk verbally, make a bond certaintly
'cause in my hand I bet your hand fit perfectly
And it's like we floatin out in space when you flirtin wit me
C'mon, a little foreplay don't hurt (hmmm)
Imagine my chest under this shirt, your ass under your skirt
It's like walking the hot sands and finding an oasis
Opposites attract that's the basis
Our sex is the wind that seperates the yin from the yang
The balance that means complete change, our aim
Is to touch you in a delicate spot
And once we get it started I ain't trying to stop

So while wild unrestrained lust and passion can be a wonderful thing I'd rather be showered with delicate kisses, romanced by letters, surprised by rose petals, vanilla scented candles and warm fragrant bathwater.

Like I said Maybe thats just me...

-Bonita

Greetings

Always New Directions...

Hey everyone reading this! No fancy intro necessary. Welcome to my blog! This is a reconstructed version of my old blog. The purpose is to make this blog bigger and better. Just a lil bit about me: I love to shop, fashion, music, art and reading. Im also really into film and exercise. Dont ever judge a book by its cover because as you all will soon see that this cover truely doesnt match the personality beneath it. I mean that in a good way. You will be delightfully surprised. So with that...I cut the fucia pink ribbon AND LET THE BLOGGING COMMENCE!

-Bonita